Tuesday, December 13, 2011

The story isn't supposed to end like this.

But it did anyway.

My first lesson learned.

My previous relationship with someone I think I fall in love with and I do want to end the relationship the way it supposed to end didn't work out well because of me. I betrayed his faith towards me, I cheat and I broke his heart. He left me, and I'm the one who felt terrible about it. I begged, I cried, I apologized, but it didn't work out. Not as simple as that. So I let go, for almost a year. I don't want to have any serious relationship with no one because I still felt terrible about the mistakes that I'd done. Until, M come, and gives hope.

My second lesson learned.

So I open my heart for him and hopes the best towards the relationship. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes that I did in the previous relationship, so I'm the one who controlled the relationship. That's my mistakes here. I control everything, we fight almost everyday, I always think he had someone else, I always think bad about him, until he gives up. But I didn't. I apologized and keep apologizing. But I do learn one thing from him, if we keep apologizing, it wont mean a thing. So I stop apologizing.

Oke lah, cerita dea macam ni je lah.

So, that's my lesson learned in a relationship that always didn't work out well. But for the time being, I didn't give up yet. I'm still trying here. 

Kepada adik adik di luar sane, cukup memberi pengajaran tak ni? T__T

Oke bye.